Friday, November 13

Ever doubt your own capabilities ? You worry you cant live up to people's expectation ? Feel pressure and get paranoid that you cant stand by your own? Everyone tells you to do your very best is already enough but deep down inside you , you still feel you can do better but it just doesn't always seem to go your way ?

sound like some product selling intro? i still have mood for lame jokes

Nope , seriously this is how i currently feel .

We all sometimes have really bizzare thoughts and most of them begin with - What if ? Growing up is scary , fun in other way too but who knows what's waiting for you . Its like when you go to sleep at night , you have your soft toys all around but your still feel unsafe cause you think there's a imaginary monster below your bed ? Don't mind me i have wild imagination . My mind wanders a lot . I dream every time when i fall asleep . If there is no threats in your life but you still feel fear , maybe you just need protection from believing your own thoughts . I guess.

I am 1 more month close to turn officially 19 this year , estimate 1 more year to get my ballet cert , 2 more months to internship , 6 more months more to graduate and most probably spreading my own wings later on , no ? Going out to the real world where my parents once protect me from , the danger and the chances .

If only i have a minute to see what's going to happen to my future .
( I am not over reacting ain't i ? or is it just me freaking out ? )
Jeez , Life is one hell of a roller coaster .

signing out , have a nice day peeps