I guess those time lasted a while and i most likely lost track that it wont last . There are days when fairy tales turn into nightmares once i step foot in for long enough therefore i face regrets soon then fell into my pits of darkness and constant worries . There are days i wake up feeling depressed at the thought that i have to go through another day and just accept that my days were far more challenging than rest of my lucky friends had . What the world offer beyond never ending problems , pain or other utter sorrows . Its just that . that . I sense sadness that days would come to a dead end figuring ways to solves or I'd just leave it be as it be . Holding back being happy its one easy thing for me to deal with but deep down i know I'm lying myself that i am not that cheerful after all . I wonder when am i ever gonna to feel the last and end every piece of this and no i don't feel comfortable sharing/telling/explain problems to anyone . I'm content with keeping it to myself . Just raw thoughts I'm typing .
But I suppose on these days when I barely get by, what keeps me going are things i expect far more beyond than these worries and problems . Plans that what i wanna do with my future and how the hell I'm gonna mould it and shape it exactly what i imagine it would be , hoping it would be . At least I'm working on something rather important while multitasking working with my probs too .
Now I'm done with this emo post . Off the shower . I'm cool .
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