Broke and empty

Update 1

I revive my hair curls and now another burnt hole in my pocket

Update 2

I told myself to stop window shopping cause it'll never end up as "window" shopping it'll end up as "just buy it for damn sake" shopping . Epically fail . Another hole in my pocket .

Update 3

My digital camera dieded on me so i really really wanna get one and i always wanted a blackberry for ages but i never seem to cash out the money and go buy one . Taking this entry as the beginning of the road to my daydream exploration in wonderland , i also wanted this primelense or flash gadget thingy to upgrade my baby dslr for ages . Whats stopping me to splurge is because there are much more important stuff that i had to spend on such as fees and other miscellaneous stuff .

I can wait . and slowly save the cash .

The only thing is bugging me is that i am not working . All i did for the past one month is being an award winner for the slacking-around couch potato contest . I already registered myself up on jobstreet , searched through asia part time and STILL no news . And on desperate mode , Monday i shall call up random companies and ask is there any vacancy . For the first time after form 5 i am not working at all . like literally not doing anything . I am so used to the 10-10 work work work , everyday got plans . Honestly , i prefer life like that . THIS ? SUCKS big time . What make matters look worst , every single time i step out the house to hang out , people will ask how am i doing , what i am doing now , yadayada shyts like that and i go : Oh i just graduated ! then they'll be : Then what are you up to now ? I go : Staying indoor , in the progress on job hunting and checking out further studies stuff . Then i look up and stare at them again and reply : in short term . Doing nothing . actually .

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I . hate . myself . for . replying . answers . like that .

To be honest, I’m not entirely sure where I was going with this. I guess it was just one of those rants that I needed to get out there, because, well, I’m 1month 1week 8day unemployed , that’s excuse enough, isn’t it?

Sigh , breath in . this is so not fun . dammit .