Monster in my heart

My mind is jumble up with thoughts and uncertainties . I cant stop being not okay and having to much anxiety to live with . It annoys me when people say its all in your mind and i gotta stop worrying. No seriously I'm fine for the 900th time , I'm probably going through a phase teenage mind boggling hormones that attacks like a virus but in a zombie version that eats happy thoughts . Its like one minute I'm feeling all hyped up because of a silly song , next thing i knew i see something that pretty much somehow relates/reminds me i go all soft and tearful . I am clueless of the shyts I'm typing now , well not exactly , i lied .

You know sometimes when you fall down, you gotta pick yourself back up and keep on going, because sometimes there isn’t going to be anybody there to do it for you and I'm gonna waste my time mourning over petty things that aren't worth for and at some point i learn that not everyone deserve the best of me . Only people that cares and will be there for me . Everyone thinks you make mistakes when you’re young but I don’t think we make any fewer when we’re grown up so I'm not feeling sorry for myself . Yeah i know life is total bitch sometimes but this is ridiculous, i can deal with it but this time instead of me trying to fix something broken, I'll start over and create something better. Prays . I can do it . WOOSAH ! Movie later and dinner with the close buds :)